My final focal point went off another course entirely. My mind spewed out a whole commentary - nay, a rant - on my former career and the people involved in it.

No idea how they had anything to do with the topic I began with, but… wow, okay, mind!

What started off as a simple exercise became a blatant exposé of my mind’s insanity!

A Course in Miracles Day 23 (January 3, 2025)

Wow, it’s 2025! Going to let that settle in for a moment. How much life has grown all around me, and the energies for this upcoming season.

In truth, I don’t want to do A Course in Miracles today. Today was an amazing day. I got done everything I wanted to, everything I hoped to do, and more - it was incredible!

Been a week or so for three reasons: 

1. I was hosting an out of town guest all week and spent much time coaching that person. When We notice things in others, its a loving observation to not judge but to see it as a mirror. This guest was both challenging but also made huge strides, which meant I did too as we re-reviewed our life lessons. 

I had a lot to get done today and it all played out in perfect harmony as I envisioned it, even the parts I thought I messed up on (but didn’t- thank you universe)… with the exception of one thing: a root chakra explosion of some sorts. 

Near the end of my hours-long errand run I had the urge to use the restroom. A massive pain and shift occurred when I made it home and went to handle my business. 

I was so focused on getting things done and beating myself up for not staying on my original schedule, that I failed to realize I got everything done! Even a bit more than originally intended. 

I sat and meditated with Brazilian hapé again. Feeling into a plan for 2025, uncertain

It can be rough realizing horrible things happened to someone you love. Honoring the thoughts, accepting them.

It’s even worse when there’s a level of survival guilt and the stark realization - if you had only realized, perhaps you could have stopped it.

I took a few days off. After a call with a spiritual brother on Friday, we decided to do a 90-day spiritual destiny accountability experiment. 

The idea was simple, we both knew we had turning points coming up in our lives, and while we were the same person in some ways, we were being called differently. 

So we decided to follow our callings, trusting our intuition, manifesting/ Law of Attraction lessons theses next few months and reconnect on April Fools Day 2025. 

This morning, which it still is, is experiencing the dust settling from last night’s reading and what a mind blower it has been. 

In my yoga this morning, I was daydreaming about one of my male friends coming into town and us practicing yoga together in the common space of my condo association. Then, a neighbor walks up asking to join/ say hi and I introduce my friend- BY THE WRONG NAME!

When is the best or right time of day to study a course in miracles? Ive chosen before bed as the last primary item of my day. I often starts between 8-10p depending on the day. 

This has been wearisome at times because my emotions, my mind, or otherwise can get stirred up while reading and applying the text and workbook- often the workbook. Sometimes I stay up longer than intended writing in my journal, or rereading the text and I miss my intended bedtime by an hour+. 

I’ve only sat down 1.5 times with ACIM this week due to social and familial demands. This will be my first text + workbook dual in a week. 

Text. Chapter 3, II Miracles as True Perception

As I read, my mind briefly wandered to wondering if I wanted to create anything from or of the text as I hope to reread the text in its entirety someday. Then I brought it back to the text and stayed focused. 

My crown chakra was sparked throughout the entire reading until the very last portion, part 6 verses 1- 7. 

I had a massive revelation during the reading of today’s text. It marked items of my childhood on the initial read, but then when I went back for a reread my sacral chakra released a realization I never had noticed before:

My first burnout was because of my father. 

Three things of note before I begin today’s Course in Miracles work:

1. I had a reaction this morning that caused me into a long series of lucid dreams. So many visuals of animal and human faces flashed across my mind. Too many to recall.

What I do recall is their intensity and clarity. 

I froze. Drink in hand, standing next to a trashcan. 

I couldn’t get any closer. Even though that’s exactly why I was there- to go inside and face my fear. 

It’s been 4 days since my last ACIM connection point as I had friends in town and we stayed together down on the Las Vegas strip. 

Reconnecting with long time (over a decade +) friends is a great way to share our life stories, check in with where we’ve come from, and witness how much we’ve changed over the years- collectively and individually. 

I jumped in during a midday transformation challenge. I had started by making out what business structure was important to me so I could both create it, making it a truly fulfilled realty, but also sense where and why I was having resistance. 

I’d been living this dream within me for so long. So planned, so deductively available on paper and years, if not decades, of inspiration that always hit a wall. 

In general, the energetic shifts are becoming more prevalent on the physical plane, both in the opportunities and money coming to me, and in my determination.

In my human design/Sphinx reading for the week, I got Death. In fact, the cards I’ve gotten both in the daily and the weekly and monthly readings for December (today is Dec 3) have all been signs I have not yet experienced with this program, yet they have been spot on.

I’m sure it has not been a coincidence.

I read the text last night as I crawled into bed. I was dozing off as I read it silently, yet it still landed peacefully. 

I marked only one section- the final verses that spoke to the idea of communicating on a level that the audience can attain without fear. 

This is neither the common or highest level of communication the person can follow or use, but rather the one without fear. As a miracle requires a moment without fear in its path to offer Atonement. 

Day 9 was yesterday. It was swift. As If all was clean and pure within moments. No commentary to write as more energies lifted form my stomach, my mind even went calm- not peaceful, but calm. All was as it should be. That delighted me and I went about my evening with friends, my dog, and then wrapped myself into my cozy bed that’s better than ever thanks to my ongoing efforts to clean the energies of my home. 

The In Between 

This evening began as I stared at my messy desk- the main pile of unsorted emotions remaining in the main section of my home. 

When I returned from Nomad Cruise, I was called to clean out my home, find the incomplete expressions of business ideas, journals, stories and more. Called to finish and let it all go as my energetic standard had clearly been raised. 

Yet, I somewhere lost my momentum and fire as I drowned again in the rising thoughts and emotions. I pushed through a bit more today- though this been a month since my return. 

Why the lingering? Why the rush? 

“All real pleasure comes from doing God’s will. This is because not doing is denial of Self.”

“Child of God, you were created to create the good, the beautiful and the holy. Do not forget this.”

I’ve inherently known this, but needed to hear it so I may heed it. It is, in fact, exactly what my morning mediation was on- reframing the mindset that has me in a state of inaction on particular matters. 

“Vision is still so dim”- does this relate to the idea of sensing though the eyes God’s energies? Yes, this is affirmed later in today’s reading. 

The first half of the text was kindly direct and what I knew I needed to read. Making absolute sense and perfect timing.